i faced some decisions
last night that forced me to evaluate some
of whats important to me, why im living the
way im living, ...
historically, ive done most of my processing
in emails to people in my world. last night
i imagined that as an entry here.
habits being what they are
when i sat down to the computer this morning
i opened up mail first and wrote some of
whats going on for me in an email.
as i was writing, and then after, i noticed
how reduced the emotional feeling and charge
associated with the experience had become.
the facts remain the same, but so quickly
they went from really challenging some of
my concepts of who i am and what im doing,
to a story of my saturday evening in calcutta.
i've noticed something like this before
the tendency for speaking or even writing
an idea or feeling to diminish its power.
given the nature of the relationship i'd like
to have with the internet, i may make an effort
to blog before doing email.
